It is the epitome of Paradox... as certain as uncertainty can conjure.
It is built up and torn down simultaneous, at thousands of points throughout it's construct... possibilities are designed and nurtured, vilified and strangled... people are born, die...
New Realities bloom beneath the plunger of the addict's syringe, witness to a bleeding sunset... in the crackling dendrites of an autistic child, calculating infinite complexities...an eyelash away from Disaster... forever and ever.
I'm heading out on tour in 10 days, for the month of August. I get the feeling that our itching to join the froth of the wave at the Ends of the Earth is matched only by the Earth's exuberance and ferocity as it enters the warp-speed phase of it's current transformation...
Nature's full attention has been reluctantly turned to us now... we have clawed at Her ankles and yanked at Her robes for so long... She is disturbed by her predicament.
What will she do with us?
I think She understands that we need to learn the hard way - again - and that she will let us go through our strange, evolutionary pubescence on our way to actual Maturity...
Like all good mothers, she knows we have to figure some things out on our own.
This blog will become a sort of tour diary while I'm gone, since daily life invariably inspires what is written here... I wont be talking about the shows, more the peripheral quality that Reality takes on when you are just a fleeting particle in it...no time to stop, or even really slow down...hurtling through space, asleep at the base of a twisted Oak or a stolid Jack Pine....
I've never enjoyed stability, of any kind. Until this past year. Now I thirst for the fluctuating balance between stability and fluidity... between the rigidity of a disciplined life and the intangible energy that is Music... Every day, I assemble bits of both into a Reality, one that I can occupy... and I can tell you, knowing which parts to keep and how to fit them together is only the beginning.
Because once you've got that down, you're starting the Long Haul... Starting your Real Work.
I wont pretend to know what the Meaning of Life is, but I'm certain that Dedication to something greater than yourself is the way to some semblance of fulfillment, purpose, and peace in this world...
Goodnight.
